Smashing Pumpkins Lyrics

Smashing Pumkins Lyrics by Albums

2006-03-13T07:41:00.000-08:00

MACHINA/the machines of God [2000]
01 The Everlasting Gaze
02 Raindrops + Sunshowers
03 Stand Inside Your Love
04 I Of The Mourning
05 The Sacred and Profane
06 Try, Try, Try
07 Heavy Metal Machine
08 This Time
09 The Imploding Voice
10 Glass and the Ghost Children
11 Wound
12 The Crying Tree of Mercury
13 With Every Light
14 Blue Skies Bring Tears
15 Age of Innocence

Adore [1998]
01 To Sheila
02 Ava Adore
03 Perfect
04 Daphne Descends
05 Once Upon a Time
06 Tear
07 Crestfallen
08 Appels + Oranjes
09 Pug
10 The Tale of Dusty and Pistol Pete
11 Annie-Dog
12 Shame
13 Behold! The Night Mare
14 For Martha
15 Blank Page
16 17

Aeroplane Flies High [1996]
01 Bullet With Butterfly Wings
02 Said Sadly
03 You're All I've Got Tonight
04 Clones (We're All)
05 A Night Like This
06 Destination Unknown
07 Dreaming
08 1979
09 Ugly
10 The Boy
11 Cherry
12 Believe
13 Set the Ray to Jerry
14 Zero
15 God
16 Mouths of Babes
17 Tribute to Johnny
18 Marquis in Spades
19 Pennies
20 Pastichio Medley
21 Tonight, Tonight
22 Meladori Magpie
23 Rotten Apples
24 Jupiter's Lament
25 Medellia of the Grey Skies
26 Blank
27 Tonite Reprise
28 Thirty-Three
29 The Last Song
30 The Aeroplane Flies High (Turns Left, Looks Right)
31 Transformer
32 The Bells
33 My Blue Heaven

Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness - Twilight To Starlig [1995]
01 Where Boys Fear To Tread
02 Bodies
03 Thirty-Three
04 In The Arms Of Sleep
05 1979
06 Tales Of A Scorched Earth
07 Thru The Eyes Of Ruby
08 Stumbleine
09 X.Y.U.
10 We Only Come Out At Night
11 Beautiful
12 Lily (My One And Only)
13 By Starlight
14 Farewell And Goodnight

Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness - Dawn To Dusk [1995]
01 Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness
02 Tonight, Tonight
03 Jellybelly
04 Zero
05 Here Is No Why
06 Bullet With Butterfly Wings
07 To Forgive
08 Fuck You (An Ode To No One)
09 Love
10 Cupid De Locke
11 Galapogos
12 Muzzle
13 Porcelina Of The Vast Oceans
14 Take Me Down

Pisces Iscariot [1994]
01 Soothe
02 Frail and Bedazzled
03 Plume
04 Whir
05 Blew Away
06 Pissant
07 Hello Kitty Kat
08 Obscured
09 Landslide
10 Starla
11 Blue
12 Girl Named Sandoz
13 La Dolly Vita
14 Spaced

Siamese Dream [1993]
01 Cherub Rock
02 Quiet
03 Today
04 Hummer
05 Rocket
06 Disarm
07 Soma
08 Geek U.S.A.
09 Mayonaise
10 Spaceboy
11 Silverfuck
12 Sweet Sweet
13 Luna

Gish [1991]
01 I am one
02 Siva
03 Rhinoceros
04 Bury me
05 Crush
06 Suffer
07 Snail
08 Tristessa
09 Window paine
10 Daydream

MACHINA/the machines of God [2000]

2005-10-19T09:32:00.000-07:00

The Everlasting Gaze

You know I'm not dead
You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead

Now you know where I've been
As you sleep, shine I am
Waiting down patiently
Born of love

You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
I'm just living in my head
Forever waiting on the ways of your desire
You always find your way

And through it all, into us all you move
Forgotten touch, forbidden thought
We can never, ever know

You know I'm not dead
You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead

Down below the creatures scream
Strangehold of God's machines
Begging to tear us out
Torn is hope

You know I'm, you know I'm not dead
I'm just the tears inside your head
Forever waiting on the ways of your desire
You always find a way

And through it all, into us all you move
Forgotten touch, forbidden thought
We can never, ever know

You know I'm not dead

We all want to hold in the everlasting gaze
Enchanted in the rapture of his sentimental sway
But underneath the wheels lie the skulls of every cog
The fickle fascination of an everlasting God

You know I'm not dead
I'm just living in my head
Forever waiting, forever waiting a cruel death

You know I'm not dead
I'm just living for myself
Forever waiting

You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead
You know I'm not dead

Raindrops + Sunshowers

Rain falls on everyone
The same old rain
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops

I send my echo out
To get your love without
Obscured reflections of my love

Rain falls on everyone
The same old rain
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops

I'll save a prayer for you
So lost and longing to
Be dragged through dirty streets
Wrapped up in clean white sheets
And if you think they'll watch you now
You should know they won't

Rain falls on everyone
The same old rain
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops

I send my echo out
To get your love without
Obscured reflections of
Of my secret love
Force down the words about
To get your love without
Obscured reflections of my love

And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops

Rain falls on everyone
The same old rain
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops

Rain falls on everyone
The same old rain
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops
And I'm just trying to walk with you
Between the raindrops

Stand Inside Your Love

You love me, meant to be
Immutable, impossible
It's destiny, pure lunacy
Incalculable, insufferable
But for the last time
You're everything that I want and ask for
You're all that I dream

Who wouldn't be the one you love?
Who wouldn't stand inside your love?
Protected and the lover of
A pure soul
And beautiful
You

Don't understand, don't feel me now
I will breathe for the both of us
Travel the world, traverse the skies
Your home is here within my heart
And for the first time
I feel as though I am reborn in my mind
Recast as child in mystic sun

Who wouldn't be the one you love?
Who wouldn't stand inside your love?

And for the first time
I'm telling you how much I need and bleed for
Your every moment
Waking sun in my time
I'll wrap my wire around your heart and you're mine
You're mine forever

Who wouldn't be the one you love? (And live for)
Who wouldn't stand inside your love? (And die for)
Who wouldn't be the one you love?

I Of The Mourning

Radio, play my favorite song
Radio, radio
Radio, I'm alone
Radio, radio
Please don't let me go, radio

I peer through curtains on empty streets
Behind a wall of caller ID
No one's out there
To hear if I care
About the troubles in the air

'Cause I of the morning now go
Pick up where my thoughts left off
'Cause I'm home to die on my own

As my radio plays my favorite song
Radio, radio
Radio, don't you know
Radio, radio
Radio, I'm alone

I've blown the dust off my guitar
In the attic with the stars
I read your letters to feel better
My tears upon the faded ink

'Cause I of the morning now go
Pick up where my thoughts left off
'Cause I'm home to die on my own

As my radio plays my favorite song
Radio, radio
Radio, don't you know
Radio, radio
Radio, I'm alone

I sit in the dark light
To wait for the ghost night
To bring the past to life
To make a toast to life
'Cause I have survived

What is it you want?
What is it you want to change?
What is it you want?
What is it you want to change?
What is it you want to change?

Radio, radio, radio, radio
Radio, radio, radio, radio
Radio, radio, radio, radio

What is it you want?
What is it you want to change?
What is it you want?
What is it you want to change?
What is it you want to change?

The Sacred and Profane

Give me tears, give me love
Let me rest, Lord above
Send the bored, your restless
The feedback scarred, devotionless

You're all a part of me now
And if I fall
You're all a part of me now
In the sun
You're all a part of me now
You're all a part of me now

Will our love ever be enough?
Just in time to prove
Will our words ever be enough?
Just in time to lose

Give me sight and barren breast
Pure snow and happiness
Give me time, give me peace
And I will prove my release

You're all a part of me now
And if I fall
You're all a part of me now
Trapped in the sun
You're all a part of me now
You're all a part of me now

Will our love ever be enough?
Just in time to prove
Will our time ever be enough?
Will our love ever be enough?

You're all a part of me now
And if I fall
You're all a part of me now
In the sun
You're all a part of me now
You're all a part of me now

You're all a part of me now
And if I fall
You're all a part of me now
In the sun
You're all a part of me now

Will our love ever be enough?
Will our love ever be enough?
Will our love ever be enough?
Just in time to prove

Try, Try, Try

Pop Tart, what's our mission?
Do we know but never listen?
For too long they held me under
But I hear it's almost over
In Detroit on a Memphis train
Like you said, it's down in the heat and the summer rain
The automatic gauze of your memories
Down in the sleep at the airplane races

Try to hold on to this heart a little bit longer
Try to hold on to this love aloud
Try to hold on, for this heart's a little bit colder
Try to hold on to this love

Paperback scrawl your hidden poems
Written around the dried out flowers
Here we are, still trading places
Try to hold on

Pop Tart, can you envision
A free world of clear division?
For too long they held us under
But I know we're getting over
In Detroit with the Nashville tears
Like you said, it's down in the heat with the broken numbers
Down in the gaze of solemnity
Down in the way you've held together

Try to hold on to this heart a little bit closer
Try to hold on to this love aloud
Try to hold on, for this heart's a little bit older
Try to hold on to this love aloud

And we are still alive
Try to hold on
And we have survived
Try to hold on
And no one should deny

We tried to hold onto the pulse of the feedback current
Into the flow of encrypted movement
Slapback kills the ancient remnants
That try to hold on

Try to hold on to this heart alive
Try to hold on to this heart aloud
Try to hold on
And we are still alive
Try to hold on
And we have survived
Try to hold on

Pop Tart, you never listen
Skinned knees
Try to hold on
Stop start, what's our mission?
Skinned knees
Try to hold on

Heavy Metal Machine

If I were alive
If I were real
Would you survive?
What would you feel?

Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
As sentimental as our broken dreams

Let me die for rock and roll
Let me die to save my soul
Let me die, let me die, rock and roll
Let the world forgive the past
Let all the girls kiss the boys at last
Let me go, let me go, rock and roll

Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, a heavy metal machine
We're the metal in their metal machines
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine

If I were dead
Would my records sell?
Could you even tell?
Is it just as well?

Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
It's elemental to all the rust it brings
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine

Let me die for rock and roll
Let me die to save my soul
Let me die, let me die, rock and roll
Let the world forgive the past
Let all the girls kiss the boys at last
Let me go, let me go, rock and roll

Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, a heavy metal machine
We're the metal in their droning schemes
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine

Will I survive?
Is it up to me?
Could you understand
That it's not yours to keep?

Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine

This Time

This time I need to know
I really must be told
If it's over
It's up to you, you know
The things you want to hold
Are in pieces

Crashing down
Crashing down again
Crashing down
Crashing down, my friends

I've got to move it on
I've got to sing my song
While I still can
Dispatch the last alarms
Hand out the last few charms
There's no surprises

Only love, yeah
Only love can win
Crashing down
Crashing down, my friends

This time I need to know
I really must be told
That it's over
I've lived my life alone
My every step foretold
To never linger
And yet it haunts me so
What we are letting go
Our spell is broken

Crashing down
Crashing down, my friends
Crashing down
Crashing down again
Only love, yeah
Only love will be enough
Yeah, only love will win

For every chemical
You trade a piece of your soul
With no return
And who you think you know
Doesn't know you at all
Their drain is needless

Someday we'll wave hello
And wish we'd never waved goodbye
To this romance
We'll drink up every line
And shoot up every word
Till there's no more

Crashing down
Crashing down, my friends
Only love
Only love can win

So cry these tears
We'll cry as all
We've held so long to fall apart
As the curtain falls
We bid you all goodnight

The Imploding Voice

Everywhere you are
Is everywhere you've been
Just lost to the beat
Punching through your skin
You don't know what to do
But still you want to crawl
All through the broken glass
That's everywhere you are

Your love must always be true
Your love must always be you

Everywhere you are
Anywhere you go
Even if you're starved
It matters what you do
But even if you've gone too far
You can follow you
Everywhere you are

And in your mind
You were alone
All this tim
With everything you were
And every smile you wore
Still locked in your heart
Everywhere you are
Everywhere you are
Every single chard

Everywhere you are
You're never too far
'Cause anywhere you'd go
Even to the stars
All you have to do
Is play the part of who you are
The rest is up to you

Phase unwound
By yourself
Atom bomb
On the shelf unsung
Pause of light
Pulse of life
New face dawns

Everywhere you are
And everywhere you go
Even if you're down
Even if you're low
The thought of you
It's in the eyes of all
Astride a storied past
That's everywhere you are

Your love must always be true
Your love must always be you

Everywhere you are
Anywhere you go
Even if you're scarred
It's all a part of you
But ever should you put it down
You can never lose me
Everywhere you are

Glass and the Ghost Children

To the center of the earth
Or anywhere God decides
Full of fever pulling forth
We hear our call as all
To the center of the earth
As if written in
DNA is reaching out
To your frequency

I want to live
Don't want to die
I want to live
I want to try
All in prayer
Prayer in all
All are scared
Scared of all

Black rooms are calling
To men in leather coats
White labs are cooking
Up the silver ghost
The glass migrates under
Her translucent skin
And all are spiders
Wonder what we've got us in

All is you
You are all
All with you
You in all
I want to live
I don't want to die
I want to live
I want to try

"So it's all very obtuse, because it's all, like, I don't know. So, like, I started thinking that everything I operate on is based on what I believe God was telling me to do. God could be my intuition or whatever, but I always assume, I always assume that the voice I hear is the voice of God. Then I started thinking, what if I'm insane? So I'm operating on the premise that I'm hearing the voice of God or what I perceive to be God speaking to me or through me, but maybe I'm completely in...so all my...demagoguery in my life about me thinking that my life has importance, my, my...thinking that my life has importance. My--my--my thought of it and the fact that I believe I'm following my intuition which in and of itself may be completely false. So then I started freaking out, thinking--of itself may be completely false. And again this creature that believes he's acting upon heavenly intuition but meanwhile he's totally rampant. And I started thinking maybe this is the cause of all the negativity against--and I started thinking maybe this is the cause of all the negativity against--and I started thinking maybe this is the cause of all the negativity against..."

So meets the final coda of a vinyl storm
One more cherry cola to lift up her dead arms
A dream of soft focus, sunsets filters through the din
We are losing contact as she dials it in
She can hear glass calling, or is it someone that looks like him?
She eyes TV reflection, and nods a knowing look
She says it doesn't matter, she never liked her looks
I have seen a thousand fractures, I have seen everything
'Cause knowing is its own answer, love something in a book
There's not much left to ponder, not much left to cook

As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her
As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her
As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her
As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her
As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her
As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her
As she counted the spiders, as they crawled up inside her

Wound

There you are, as you always were
In bathing light and naked blue
You're a part of me, eternal one
By grand design and setting sun

If you wait, I will wait
Taste, I will taste
If you love, I will love
Run, I will run
To my last breath

Last night I turned around and thought I saw myself turning
Inside the strangest dream of life, unloved and cities burning

Awake in my arms you cry unshamed
Our age of the hours while they still devour all
So take it all, I doubt if we will know it's gone
'Cause we've been here since time began

Begged God awake and make these plans
Wound opens, reveal this broken man
And soon there's notions of blood on his hands

If you wait, I will wait
Taste, I will taste
If you love, I will love
Run, I will run
To my last breath

Last night I turned around and thought I saw myself turning
Last night I turned around and thought I watched the world ending
Inside the crushing down I felt a pang, the tide was turning

Destroyed in the wake
The jealous ingrates
Who'll tear this world down
To spite God above
With his own love
With his own love

If you wait, if you wait
If you wait, I will wait
Taste, I will taste
If you love, I will love
Run, I will run
To my last breath

The Crying Tree of Mercury

This is the song I've been singing my whole life
I've been waiting like a knife
To cut open your heart
And bleed my soul into you
I did it all for you
You and you and you and you

This is the sound I've been making my whole life
I've been waiting for this night
To clear up all the talk
Although I'm selfish to a fault
Is it selfish it's you I want?
You, I did it all for you

This love will stand as long as you
There's really no excuse
I did it all for you

These are the tears I've been crying my whole life
Like an ocean of desire
I'm reaching through the noise
Across the dusk of time
Within the lilting lies
I am singing out to you

With Every Light

Taking over, we're taking over
Throw the weight up off your shoulders now
That we can show our love

It's almost over, it's almost over
No more war and no more soldiers
To stand against his love

Away with all the troubles that you've made
Away with waiting for another day
Away

Look ma, the sun is shining on me
Impatient in love and aching to be
Could you believe in heaven
If heaven was all you had?

We're taking over, we're taking over
Throw away your four-leafed clovers
And stand beside this love

Away with everything you've grown to hate
Away with everything that holds you safe
Away

And every light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
Every light light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
Every light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
I'm never alone

Look ma, the sun is shining on me
Taking my time to do as I please
Could you believe in heaven
If heaven was all you had?

The sun is beaming, radiating
All the love we are creating
We are creating

And every light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
Every light light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
Every light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
Every light I've found
Is every light that's shining down on me
I'm never alone

Blue Skies Bring Tears

Unleash the Armageddon
So all the children go to heaven
I sit by quiet still
With their pictures on my eyes
You'll draw the guns you're given
Write down the words as written
And never disturb the presence
Of resurrection crutch

And it's about time
It's about drawing near
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears

Descend the darkened stairways
Make hate with plastic playmates
And fire out remaining traces
Of your self-esteem
Mainline the deepest secrets
Lick clean the dirty fingers
I am a stranger to you
As you are to yourself

And it's about time
It's about fear
Blue skies bring tears
Don't you want me
As I awake the city sigh
We'll watch the seasons die
Blue skies bring tears

Take me inside your body
Cover me with your soul
To the darkest recess
Is where I wish to go
You are the greatest flower
That I have ever devoured
I ask for nothing given
For nothing in return

Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears

Age of Innocence

We dismiss the backroads
And ride the streets unafraid
Resort to scraping pain
From our bones unashamed

No more the eye upon you
No more the simple bane

Desolation yes, hesitation no
Desolation yes

Adore [1998]

2005-10-19T09:30:00.000-07:00

To Sheila

Twilight fades
Through blistered Avalon
The sky's cruel torch
On aching autobahn
Into the uncertain divine
We scream into the last divine

You make me real
You make me real
Strong as I feel
You make me real

Sheila rides
On crashing nightengale
Intake eyes
Leave passing vapor trails
With blushing brilliance alive
Because it's time to arrive

You make me real
You make me real
Strong as I feel
You make me

Lately, I just can't seem to believe
Discard my friends to change the scenery
It meant the world to hold a bruising faith
But now it's just a matter of grace

A summer storm
Graces all of me
Highway warm
Sing silent poetry
And I could bring you the light
And take you home into the night

(You make me real) Lately, I just can't seem to believe
(You make me real) Discard my friends that change the scenery
(Strong as I feel) It meant the world to hold a bruising faith
(You make me real) But now it's just a matter of grace

Ava Adore

It's you that I adore
You'll always be my whore
You'll be a mother to my child
And a child to my heart

We must never be apart
We must never be apart

Lovely girl, you're the beauty in my world
Without you, there aren't reasons left to find

And you'll pull your crooked teeth
You'll be perfect just like me
You'll be a lover in my bed
And a gun to my head

We must never be apart
We must never be apart

Lovely girl, you're the murder in my world
Dressing coffins for the souls I've left to die
Drinking mercury to the mystery
Of all that you should ever seek to find
In time

In you I see dirty
In you I count stars
In you I feel so pretty
In you I taste God
In you I feel so hungry
In you I crash cars

We must never be apart

Drinking mercury to the mystery
Of all that you should ever seek to find
Lovely girl, you're the murder in my world
Dressing coffins for the souls I've left behind
In time

We must never be apart

And you'll always be my whore
'Cause you're the one that I adore
And you'll pull your crooked teeth
You'll be perfect just like me

In you I feel so dirty
In you I crash cars
In you I feel so pretty
In you I taste God

We must never be apart

Perfect

And I've known
We're just like old friends
We just can't pretend
That lovers make amends
We are reasons so unreal
We can't help but feel
That something has been lost

But please
You know you're just like me
Next time I promise we'll be perfect
Perfect
Perfect

Strangers down the line
Lovers out of time
Memories unwind
So far, I still know who you are
But now I wonder who I was
Angel, you know it's not the end
We'll always be good friends
The letters have been sent on

So please
You always were so free
You'll see, I promise we'll be perfect
Perfect

Strangers when we meet
Strangers on the street
Lovers walk asleep

Perfect
You know this has to be
We always were so free
We promised that we'd be
Perfect
Perfect

Daphne Descends

With the sugar sickness
You spy the kidnap kid
Who kids you to oblivion
It's the perfect hassle
For the perfumed kiss
He makes you miss him more than home

You love him
You love him more than this
You love him and you cannot, you can't resist

You love him
You love him for yourself
You love him and no one else, no one else

Past sidewalk ashes
A last lover's arc
You come apart to intertwine
It was all so simple
As you watched him move
Across the darkness in your room

You love him
You love him for yourself
You love him and no one else, no one else

And the winding vines
The pretty boys dive
And through the pinhole stars
Into the shadow wind
You will lose him then
On some gentle dawn
This boy is here and gone

You love him
You love him for yourself
You love him and no one, no one else

You love him
You love him more than this
You love him and you cannot, you can't resist

You love him
You love him

Once Upon a Time

Mother, I'm tired
Come surrender my son
Time has ravaged on my soul
No plans to leave, but still I go
Falling with the leaves
Falling out of sleep
To the last goodbyes
Who cares why?

Mother, I've tried
Wasting my life
I haven't given up, I lie
To make you so proud in my eyes
Falling out of sleep
Crawling over me
To the last goodbyes
Who cares why?

Tuesday's come and gone
Restless, still I drive
Try to leave it all behind
Falling, falling out of sleep
Falling, falling with the leaves
I go crawling, crawling over me

Once upon a time in my life
Once upon a time in my life
Once upon a time in my life
Once upon a time in my life
I went falling
I went falling

Mother, I hope you know
That I miss you so
Time has ravaged on my soul
To wipe a mother's tears grown cold

Tear

The lights came on fast
Lost in motorcrash
Gone in a flash unreal
But you knew all along
You laugh the light
I sing the songs
To watch you numb

I saw you there
You were on your way
You held the rain
And for the first time, heaven seemed insane
'Cause heaven is to blame
For taking you away

And do you know the way that I can
Do you know the way that I can't lose?
And do you know the things that I can
Do you know the things that I can do?

Where is your heart?
Where is your heart gone to?
Tear me apart
Tear me apart from you

You laugh the light
I cry the wound
In gray afternoons

I saw you there
You were on your way
You held the rain
And for the first time, heaven seemed insane
For taking you away
'Cause heaven is to blame
For taking you away

The lights came to pass
Dead opera motorcrash
Gone in a flash unreal
In nitrous overcast

And do you know the way that I can
Do you know the way that I can't lose?
And do you know the things that I can
Do you know the things that I can't lose?

Tear me apart
Tear me apart from you
Where is your heart?
Where is your heart run to?

Crestfallen

Who am I to need you when I'm down?
Where are you when I need you around?
Your life is not your own

And all I ask you
Is for another chance
Another way around you
To live by circumstance, once again

Who am I to need you now?
To ask you why, to tell you no
To deserve your love and sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me

And you may go, but I know you won't leave
Too many years built into memories
Your life is not your own

Who am I to need you now?
To ask you why, to tell you no
To deserve your love and sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me

Who am I to you?
Along the way
I lost my faith

And as you were, you'll be again
To mold like clay, to break like dirt
To tear me up in your sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me
You were never meant to belong to me
You were never meant to belong to me

Who am I?

Appels + Oranjes

What if the sun refused to shine?
What if the clouds refused to rain?
What if the wind refused to blow?
What if the seas refused to wave?
What if the world refused its turn?
What if the stars would hesitate?

What if what is isn't true?
What are you going to do?
What if what is isn't you?
Does that mean you've got to lose?
Digging for the feel of something new

What if the silence let you dream?
What if the air could let you breathe?
What if the words would bring you here?
What if this sound could bring you peace?

What if what is isn't true?
What are you going to do?
Digging for the feel of something new
What if what is isn't you?
Does that mean you've got to lose?

It came from your thoughts, your dreams and visions
Ripped up from your weeks and indecisions

What if the sun refused to shine?
What if the clouds refused to rain?
What if the world refused to turn?
What if the clocks would hesitate?

What if what is isn't true?
What are you going to do?
What if what is isn't you?
Does that mean you've got to lose?
Digging for the feel of something new

Does that mean you've got to choose
The feel of something new?
Does that mean you've got to lose
The thoughts you cannot lose?
What are you going to do?

Pug

Kiss and kill me sweetly
Come and drive me home
Drag the miles in me
I am yours alone

Inside where it's warm
Wrap myself in you
Outside where I'm torn
Fight myself in two
In two
Into you

Desire me so deeply
Drain and kick me hard
Whisper secrets for me
Try to go too far

Inside where it's warm
Wrap myself in you
Outside where I'm torn
Fight myself in two
In two
Into

Please don't change
Please don't change at all
Bring your rain
Bring your rain to fall

Inside where it's warm
Wrap myself in you
Outside where I'm torn
Fight myself in two
In two
Into you

Come and kiss me sweetly
Ride the telephone
Drag the miles to me
I am yours alone
Yours alone
On the telephone
Yours alone
Looking for a kiss kiss
Yours alone

The Tale of Dusty and Pistol Pete

Dusty screams, through doors and imaginary floors, "Why can't you miss me?"
Pistol Pete removes the final breaths from her unkind, and she is shaken
What does this mean, in love or in peace?
With you lying next to me
So faithless serene
And she calls to him

Let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
Far out beneath the sorrow clouds
Let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
Let them cry out through your rusted scars

Alone he roams inside the ordinary catacombs of her waiting
With raven hands, she steals and staggers towards her man, still scorned by his demon
Because he's undone, become the language of
Disaster and love
Vengeance and dust
And she calls to him

Let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
Far out beneath the sorrow clouds
Let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
Let them cry out through your rusted scars

Dusty screams, through doors and imaginary scenes of hurt and teardrop
As he holds her down, in the cold lonely winds
Together again, her inside him
And she calls to him

Let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
Far out beneath the sorrow clouds
Let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
Let them cry out through your rusted scars

Annie-Dog

Amphetamine Annie-Dog
Has her leash and a face
Her velvet spleen, her shackle spine
Her diamond curse, it comes with mine

A vessel she, for violent I
Confession arms awake
Mine, mine, you were always mine
Possessed by my taste

And below the angel dog
Combs her hair and sings her psalms
The bombs go off, she doesn't notice
It all goes wrong, she sets things tragic
She is Venus, she is Mars
She's electric, and the struggle of

Upon my face we leave no trace
But in her stomach mercury aged

She holds the blood, she carves the knives
She digs the wives in our babies

Amphetamine Annie-Dog
Pulls her trash and her stories
From place to place, and bed to bed
Gives of herself and the magnet head

Another floor, another ceiling
Counting stairs with double meanings

Is it wrong to swallow whole?
To disappear in her?
To give her the priceless peace
Of giving up control?

We tumble out into the streets
And Annie-Dog, she drags her leash
Pretty face, ugly mouth
Bitter bred and so released

And by the no, and by the yes
Annie goes if you couldn't guess

A simple man, a sycophant
Her elephant with the laughing call
She wants clean sheets, and fresh flowers
And dental shots, and the Hong Kong glue

Amphetamine Annie-Dog
Has her leash and a face

Shame

You're gonna walk on home
You're gonna walk alone
You're gonna see this through
Don't let 'em get to you

Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-shame
Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-shame
Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-shame

Love is good and love is kind
Love is drunk and love is blind
Love is good and love is mine
Love is drunk all the time

Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-shame
Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-shame
Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-shame
Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-shame

You're gonna walk on home
You're gonna walk alone
You're gonna walk so far
You're gonna wonder who you are

Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-shame
Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-shame
Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-shame
Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh-shame

Shame
Shame

Love is good and love is kind
Love is good and love is blind
Love is good and love is mine
Love is good all the time

Hello, goodbye, you know you made us cry
Hello, goodbye, you know you made us cry

Behold! The Night Mare

I faced the fathoms in your deep
Withstood the suitors' quiet siege
Pulled down the heavens just to please you
Appease you
The wind blows, and I know

I can't go on
Digging roses from your grave
To linger on
Beyond the beyond
Where the willows weep
And the whirlpools sleep
You'll find me
The coarse tide reflects sky

And the night mare rides on
And the night mare rides on
With a December black psalm
And the night mare rides on

Where I fear is lost here
The wind blows, and I know

All you have to do is run away
And steal yourself from me
Become a mystery to gaze into
You're so cruel in all you do
But still I believe, I believe in you

So may you come with your own knives
You'll never take me alive
With all the force of what is true
Is there nothing I can do?

I can't go on
Digging roses from your grave
To linger on
Beyond the beyond
Where the willows weep
And the whirlpools sleep
You'll find me

And the night mare rides on
And the night mare rides on
With a December black psalm
And the night mare rides on

I've faced the fathoms in your deep
Withstood the suitors' quiet siege
Pulled down the heavens just to please you
To hold the flower I can't keep

For Martha

Whenever I run
Whenever I run to you, lost one
It's never done
Just hanging on
Just past has let me be
Returning as if dream
Shattered as belief

If you have to go, don't say goodbye
If you have to go, don't you cry
If you have to go, I will get by
Someday I'll follow you and see you on the other side

But for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning of
Heaven from above
But for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning of
Heaven from above

Your picture out of time
Left aching in my mind
Shadows kept alive

If you have to go, don't say goodbye
If you have to go, don't you cry
If you have to go, I will get by
Someday I'll follow you and see you on the other side

But for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning of
Heaven from above
But for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning of
Heaven from above

Long horses, we are born
Creatures more than torn
Mourning our way home

Blank Page

Blank page was all the rage
Never meant to say anything
In bed I was half-dead
Tired of dreaming of rest
Got dressed above the state line
Looking for you at the five and dime
Stop sign told me to stay at home
Told me you were not alone

Blank page was all the rage
Never meant to hurt anyone
In bed I was half-dead
Tired of dreaming of rest

You haven't changed
You're still the same
May you rise as you fall
You were easy, you are forgotten
You are the ways of my mistakes

I catch the rainfall
Through the leaking roof
That you had left behind
You remind me of that leak in my soul
The rain falls, my friends call, leaking rain on the phone

Take a day, plant some trees
May they shade you from me
May your children play beneath

Blank page was all the rage
Never meant to say anything
In bed I was half-dead
Tired of dreaming of rest
Got dressed above the state line
Looking for you at the five and dime
But there I was, picking pieces up

You are a ghost
Of my indecision
No more little girl

17

instrumental

Aeroplane Flies High [1996]

2005-10-19T09:27:00.000-07:00

Bullet With Butterfly Wings

The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get for my pain?
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game

(chorus)
Even though I know - I suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage I'm still just a rat in a cage (2x)
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I'm still just a rat in a cage

Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal
But can you fake it, for just one more show?
And what do you want, I want to change
And what have you got when you feel the same

(chorus)

(chorus 2)
Tell me I'm the only one
Tell me there's no other one
Jesus was an only son
Tell me I'm the chosen one
Jesus was an only son for you

(chorus)
(chorus 2)

Despite all my rage I'm still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I'm still just a rat in a cage
And I still believe that I cannot be saved

1979

Shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time
On a live wire right up off the street
You and I should meet
Junebug skipping like a stone
With the headlights pointed at the dawn
We were sure we'd never see an end to it all
And I don't even care to shake these zipper blues
And we don't know
Just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
Double cross the vacant and the bored
They're not sure just what we have in the store
Morphine city slippin dues down to see
That we don't even care as restless as we are
We feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
And poured cement, lamented and assured
To the lights and towns below
Faster than the speed of sound
Faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope
Justine never knew the rules,
Hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
No apologies ever need be made, I know you better than you fake it
To see that we don't care to shake these zipper blues
And we don't know just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
The street heats the urgency of sound
As you can see there's no one around

Zero

My reflection, dirty mirror
There's no connection to myself
I'm your lover. I'm your zero
I'm the face in your dreams of glass

So save your prayers
For when you're really gonna need 'em
Throw out your cares and fly
Wanna go for a ride?

She's the one for me
She's all I really need
'Cause she's the one for me
Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
And cleanliness is godliness and God is empty just like me

Intoxicated with the madness, I'm in love with my sadness
Bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms
The fashion victoms chew their charcoal teeth

I never let on, that I was on a sinking ship
I never let on that I was down
You blame yourself, for what you can't ignore
You blame yourself for wanting more

She's the one for me
She's all I really need
She's the one for me
She's my one and only

God

god knows i'm helpless to speak
on my own behalf
god is as helpless as me
caught in the negatives
we all just do as we please
false transmissions
i hope god forgives me
for my transgressions

it's what you want
to know no consequences
it's what you need
to fucking bleed
it's all too much

god knows i'm restless and weak
full of piss and vinegar
god knows we sow what we reap
in the dirt of grandeur
when the darkness comes to me
and it fixes its gaze on me
god knows i'm helpless

it's what you want
to know no consequences
it's what you need
to fucking bleed
it's all to much

god knows i'm helpless

you break your back
for what you can't have
you can't turn back
god knows i'm helpless

Tonight, Tonight

Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel

Believe, believe in me, believe
Believe that life can change
That you're not stuck in vain
We're not the same, we're different tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight

And you know you're never sure
But you're sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade in your city by the lake
The place where you were born

Believe, believe in me, believe
Believe in the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight

We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight

Tonite Reprise

And the embers never fade in my city by the lake
The place where I was born
As the wind-up toys wind down
Muffling the sound of a life hidden underground
Believe, believe in me
Believe
That you can change, that you're not stuck in vain
We're not the same, we're different tonite
We'll the crucify the insincere tonite
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonite
The impossible is possible tonite
Believe in me like I believe in you tonite

Thirty-Three

speak to me in a language i can hear
humour me before i have to go
deep in thought i forgive everyone
as the cluttered streets greet me once again
i know i can't be late, supper's waiting on the table
tomorrow's just an excuse away
so I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
the earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
at the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
steeple guide me to my heart and home
the sun is out and up and down again
i know i'll make it, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you
and for a moment i lose myself
wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
i've journeyed here and there and back again
but in the same old haunts i still find my friends
mysteries not ready to reveal
sympathies i'm ready to return
i'll make the effort, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
tomorrow's just an excuse
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you

Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness - Twilight To Starlig [1995]

2005-10-19T09:25:00.000-07:00

Where Boys Fear To Tread

Candy cane walks down
To build a bonfire, to break my fall
My baby, my sweet thing
Just maybe we could lose ourselves this time
King of the horseflies, dark prince of death
His tragic forces are heaven sent
In sweet things, in a lovers breath
In knowing this was meant to be the last
A go-go-kids, a go-go-style
A suck suck kiss, a suck suck smile
As always, in young need
A veiled promise to never die
On dead highways, her black beauties roam
For june angels, so far from home
For a love lost, a faded picture
To tread lightning, to ink the lavender skies
So get on the bomb
Get back where you belong
Bodies

Cast the pearls aside, of a simple life of need
Come into my life forever
The crumubled cities stand as known
Of the sights you have been shown
Of the hurt you call your own

Love is suicide

The empty bodies stand at rest
Casualties of their own flesh
Afflicted by their dispossession

(chorus)
But no bodies ever knew
Nobodys
No bodies felt like you
Nobodys

Love is suicide
(deny, decide, destroy, disobey, disguise)

Now we drive the night, to the ironies of peace
You can't help deny forever
The tragedies reside in you
The secret sights hide in you
The lonely nights divide you in two

All my blisters now revealed
In the darkness of my dreams
In the spaces in between us

(chorus)

Love is suicide

Thirty-Three

Speak to me in a language I can hear humour me before I have to go
Deep in thought I forgive everyone
As the cluttered streets greet me once again
I know I can't be late, supper's waiting on the table
Tomorrow's just an excuse away
So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
Steeple guide me to my heart and home
The sun is out and up and down again
I know I'll make it, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you
And for a moment I lose myself
Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
I've journeyed here and there and back again
But in the same old haunts I still find my friends
Mysteries not ready to reveal
Sympathies I'm ready to return
I'll make the effort, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
Tomorrow's just an excuse
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you

In The Arms Of Sleep

Sleep will not come to this tired body now
Peace will not come to this lonely heart
There are some things I'll live without
But I want you to know that I need you right now
I need you tonite

I steal a kiss from her sleeping shadow moves
'cause I'll always miss her wherever she goes
And I'll always need her more than she could ever need me
I need someone to ease my mind
But sometimes a someone is so hard to find

And I'll do anything to keep her here tonite
And I'll say anything to make her feel alright
And I'll be anything to keep her here tonite
'cause I want you to stay, with me
I need you tonite

She comes to me like an angel out of time
As I play the part of saint on my knees
There are some things I'll live without
But I want you know that I need you right now

Suffer my desire (2x)
Suffer my desire for you

1979

Shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time
On a live wire right up off the street
You and I should meet
Junebug skipping like a stone
With the headlights pointed at the dawn
We were sure we'd never see an end to it all
And I don't even care to shake these zipper blues
And we don't know
Just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
Double cross the vacant and the bored
They're not sure just what we have in the store
Morphine city slippin dues down to see
That we don't even care as restless as we are
We feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
And poured cement, lamented and assured
To the lights and towns below
Faster than the speed of sound
Faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope
Justine never knew the rules,
Hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
No apologies ever need be made, I know you better than you fake it
To see that we don't care to shake these zipper blues
And we don't know just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
The street heats the urgency of sound
As you can see there's no one around

Tales Of A Scorched Earth

Farewell goodnight last one out turn out the lights
And let me be, let me die inside
Let me know the way from this world of hate in you
'cause the dye is cast, and the bitch is back
And we're all dead, yeah we're all dead
Inside the future of a shattered past

(chorus)
I lie just to be real, I'd die just to feel
Why do the same old things keep on happening?
Because beyond my hopes there are no feelings

Bless the martyrs and kiss the kids
For knowing better, for knowing this
'cause you're all whores, and I'm a fag
And I've got no mom and I've got no dad
To save me the wasted, save me from myself

(chorus)

Everybody's lost just waiting to be found
Everyone's a thought just waiting to fade
So fuck it all 'cause I don't care
So what somehow somewhere we dared
To try to dare to dare for a little more

I lie just to be real, I'd die just to feel
Why do the same old things keep on happening?
Because beyond my hopes there are no reasons

Thru The Eyes Of Ruby

Wrap me up in always, and drag me in with maybes
Your innocence is treasure, your innocence is death
Your innocence is all I have
Breathing under water, and living under glass, and

(chorus)
If you spin your love around
The secrets of your dreams
You may find your love is gone
And is not quite what it seemed
To appear to disappear
Beneath all your darkest fears

I believe in never, I believe in all the way
But belief is not to notice, belief is just some faith
And faith can't help you to escape

And with this ring I wed thee true
And with this ring I wed thee now
And with this ring I play so dead
But no one's asking for the truth, so let me tell you

(chorus)

To the reveleations of fresh faced youth
No one will come to save you
So speak your peace in the murmurs drawn
But youth is wasted on the young

Your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate
My love for you just can't explain
Why we're forever frozen, forever beautiful
Forever lost inside ourselves

The night has come to hold us young

Stumbleine

Boredoms in the bathroom shaking out the loose teeth
Sally's in the stirrups claiming her destiny
And nobody nowhere understands anything
About me and all my dreams
Lost at sea

Jack it up judy, set your heart alight
Mayfair mistress of the satellites
Misspent youth - faking up a rampage
To hold off the real slaves
Paid off and staid

And what you never knew
Can never get to you
So fake it

I'll be your stumbleine
I'll be your super queen
And make you

Jukebox fuckup hanging round the drugstore
No matter what you say, he'll be back for more
Mommy's in the manger with the little kids
She's got her reasons, got my forgets
Of tears and idle threats

Misplaced

And no matter what they do
They can't get to you
So fake it

I'll be your stumbleine
I'll be your super queen
And make you me

Come around ruby I could never sleep alone

X.Y.U.

She didn't wanna be, she didn't wanna know
She couldn't run away cause she was crazy
She gave it all away, she saw her baby break
And in the air it hung that she was dull razors
And I said, I wanna fill you up, I wanna break you, I wanna give you up
From one another, another one should come to one another
No one should come between us
Still I was lonely, and she was by my side, my one and only
Knows that she could never hide
I couldn't her, and it was just a game, cause I was lonely and she was crazy
Rat-tat-tat, ka boo boom, now take that, and just a bit of this
Cause I'm a watcher, and I'm a doer of none
Come to save you, cuase your all mine
I hurt where I can't feel, I feel where I can't hurt
I know where I can't know, I bleed for me and mine
Ka-boom, a rat-tat-tat, and some good ole bliss
Cause I'm a sister, and I'm a motherfuck
I am made of shamrocks, I am made of stern stuff
I am never enough, I am the forgotten child
And I said I wanna fill you up, I wanna break you, I wanna give you up
From one another, no one should ever come
In between us, between us and our love
Mary had a little lamb, her face was white white as snow
And everywhere that mary went I was sure to go
Now mary's got a problem, and mary's not a stupid girl
Mary's got some deep shit, and mary does not forget
And this is how mary's garden grows, and this is how mary has her ghosts
And into the eyes of the jackyl I say ka-boom
Now we begin descent, to where we've never been
There is no going back, this wasn't meant to last
This is a hell on earth, we are meant to serve
And she will never learn
Bye bye, baby goodbye

We Only Come Out At Night

We only come out at night, the days are much too bright
We only come out at night
And once again, you'll pretend to know me well, my friends
And once again, I'll pretend to know the way
Thru the empty space
Thru the secret places of the heart
We only come out at night, the days are much too bright
We only come out at night
I walk alone, I walk alone to find the way home
I'm on my own, I'm on my own to see the ways
That I can't help the days, you will make it home o.k
I know you can, and you can
We only come out at night, the days are much too bright
We only come out at night
And once again, you'll pretend to know that
There's an end, that there's an end to this begin
It will help you sleep at night
It will make it seem that right is always right
Alright?
We only come out at night

Beautiful

Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun
Wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come
And I can't help but feel attached
To the feelings I can't even match
With my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you
Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky
Wonderful, it's wonderful, to know that you're just like i
And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't
But you just can't tell
Who'll you love and who you won't
And I love you, as you love me
So let the clouds roll by your face
We'll let the world spin on to another place
We'll climb the tallest tree above it all
To look down on you and me and them
And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't
But you just can't tell, who you'll love and who you won't
Don't let your life wrap up around you
Don't forget to call, whenever
I'll be here just waiting for you
I'll be under your stars forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you
I'll be under the stairs forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you

Lily (My One And Only)

Lily, my one and only
I can hardly wait till I see her
Silly, I know I'm silly
Cause I'm hanging in this tree
In the hopes that she will catch a glimpse of me
And thru her window shade
I watch her shadow move
I wonder if she.......?
Lily, my one and only
Love is in my heart and in your eyes
Will she or won't she want him
No one knows for sure
But an officer is knocking at my door
And thru her window shade
I watch her shadow move
I wonder if she could only see me?
And when I'm with her I feel fine
If I could kiss her I wouldn't mind the time it took to find
My lily, my one and only
I can hardly wait till I see her
Oh lily, I know you love me
Cause as they're draggin me away
I swear I saw her raise her hand and wave (goodbye)

By Starlight

By starlight I'll kiss you
And promise to be your one and only
I'll make you feel happy
And leave you to be lost in mine
And where will we go, what will we do?
Soon said i, will know

Dead eyes, are you just like me?
'cause her eyes were as vacant as the seas
Dead eyes, are you just like me?

And all along, we knew we'd carry on just to belong

By starlight I know you
As lovely as a wish granted true
My life has been empty, my life has been untrue
And does she really know, who I really am?
Does she really know me at last

Dead eyes, are you just like me?

Farewell And Goodnight

Goodnight, to every little hour that you sleep tite
May it hold you through the winter of a long night
And keep you from the loneliness of yourself
Heart strung is your heart frayed and empty
Cause it's hard luck, when no one understands your love
It's unsung, and I say
Goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day
Goodnight, always, to all thats pure that's in your heart

Goodnight, may your dreams be so happy and your
Head lite with the wishes of a sandman and a night light
Be careful not to let the bedbugs sleep tight nestled in your covers
The sun shines but I don't
A silver rain will wash away
And you can't tell, it's just as well
Goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day
Goodnight, always, to all that's pure that's in your heart

Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness - Dawn To Dusk [1995]

2005-10-19T09:24:00.000-07:00

Tonight, Tonight

Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel

Believe, believe in me, believe
Believe that life can change
That you're not stuck in vain
We're not the same, we're different tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight

And you know you're never sure
But you're sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade in your city by the lake
The place where you were born

Believe, believe in me, believe
Believe in the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight

We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight

Jellybelly

Welcome to nowhere fast
Nothing here ever lasts
Nothing but memories of what never was

We're nowhere, we're nowhere, we're nowhere to be
Nowhere, we're nowhere, we're nowhere to see

Living makes me sick
So sick I wish I'd die
Down in the belly of the beast
I can't lie

You're nowhere, you're nowhere, you're nowhere to be
Nowhere, you're nowhere, you're nowhere to see

There's nothing left to do
There's nothing left to feel
Doesn't matter what you want, so

To make yourself feel better
You make it so you'll never
Give in to your forevers
And live for always

And forever, forever, you're forever to be
Forever, forever, you're forever to me

Zero

My reflection, dirty mirror
There's no connection to myself
I'm your lover. I'm your zero
I'm the face in your dreams of glass

So save your prayers
For when you're really gonna need 'em
Throw out your cares and fly
Wanna go for a ride?

She's the one for me
She's all I really need
'Cause she's the one for me
Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
And cleanliness is godliness and God is empty just like me

Intoxicated with the madness, I'm in love with my sadness
Bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms
The fashion victoms chew their charcoal teeth

I never let on, that I was on a sinking ship
I never let on that I was down
You blame yourself, for what you can't ignore
You blame yourself for wanting more

She's the one for me
She's all I really need
She's the one for me
She's my one and only

Here Is No Why

The useless drag of another day
The endless drags of a death rock boy
Mascara sure and lipstick lost
Glitter burned by restless thoughts
Of being forgotten

And in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Desperate and displeased - with whoever you are
And you're a star

Somewhere - he pulls his hair down - over a frowning smile
A hidden diamond you cannot find
A secret star that cannot shine over to you

May the king of gloom be forever doomed
And in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Burning up in speed
Lost inside your dreams, of teen machines

The useless drags, the empty days
The lonely towers of long mistakes
To forgotten faces and faded loves
Sitting still was never enough

And if you're giving in, you're giving up
'cause in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Burning up in speed
Lost inside the dreams of teen machines

Bullet With Butterfly Wings

The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get for my pain?
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game

(chorus)
Even though I know - I suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage I'm still just a rat in a cage (2x)
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I'm still just a rat in a cage

Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal
But can you fake it, for just one more show?
And what do you want, I want to change
And what have you got when you feel the same

(chorus)

(chorus 2)
Tell me I'm the only one
Tell me there's no other one
Jesus was an only son
Tell me I'm the chosen one
Jesus was an only son for you

(chorus)
(chorus 2)

Despite all my rage I'm still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I'm still just a rat in a cage
And I still believe that I cannot be saved

To Forgive

Ten times removed
I forget about where it all began
Bastard son of a bastard son of
A wild eyed child of the sun
And right as rain, I'm not the same
But I feel the same, I feel nothing

(chorus)
Holding back the fool again
Holding back the fool pretends
I forget to forget nothing is important
Holding back the fool again

I sensed my loss
Before I even learned to talk
And I remember my birthdays
Empty party afternoons won't come back

(chorus)

I forget to forget me
I forget to forget you see
Nothing is important to me

I knew my loss
Before I even learned to speak
And all along, I knew it was wrong
But I played along, with my birthday song

(chorus)

Fuck You (An Ode To No One)

I'm never coming back
I'm never giving in
I'll never be the shine in your spit (spit)

I disconnect the act
I disconnect the dots
I disconnect the me in me

And you're mistaken, it's you that's faking
Living and breathing and dying too
This message is for anyone who dares to hear a fool

You can't bring me back, you can't bring me back
'Cause I give it all back to you

Thru sacred allys, the living wrecks, yeah
Wreak their havoc upon this world
The disenchanted, the romantics,
The body and face and soul of you has gone down that deep black hole

Destroy the mind - destroy the body - but you cannot destroy the heart
Destroy the mind - destroy the body - but you cannot destroy the heart
And you, make it so I need to disconnect
And you make it so real
I don't need your love to disconnect

To runaround kids get in get-go cars
With vaseline afterbirths and neon coughs
Galaxies full of nobodies
Giving us the farewell runarounds
I took a Virgin Mary axe to his sweet baby Jane, lost my innocence to a no good girl,
Scratch my face with anvil hands, and coil my tounge around a bumblebee mouth
And I give it all back to you
I give it all back to you, yey
I give it all back to you
For you

No way!
I don't need it!
I don't need you love to disconnect
And you make it so real
I don't need your love to disconnect

No way, no way
No way to disconnect
And you mak it so real
I don't need your love to disconnect
No way, no way
Now way to disconnect!

Love

To my mistakes, to my mistakes of cowardice
She shimmy shakes, the jimmy jakes of consequence
Born of the airs and dues, my airs of madness to declare
That it's ok, it's love

(chorus)
It's what you wanted to see, it's who you wanted to be
For what you needed to need, she'll make it up
Love, it's who you know

Machine gun blues, her vacant rush is so steel
I'm unaware, lost inside your visions
I got mine too over, I got mine and I got you
'cause I know you, you're love

(chorus)

Can I look up to you as you look down on me
Can I feel in to you as you felt in to me
I can't help what you see, I can't help but to be
For what I needed to need, she'll make it
Love, it's who you know

Cupid De Locke

Cupid hath pulled back hi sweetheart's bow
To cast divine arrows into her soul
To grab her attention swift and quick
Or morrow the marrow of her bones be thick
With turpentine kisses and mistaken blows

See the devil may do as the devil may care
He loves none sweeter as sweeter the dare
Her mouth the mischief he doth seek
Her heart the captive of which he speaks
So note all ye lovers in love with the sound
Your world be shattered with nary a note
Of one cupids arrow under your coat

And in the land of star crossed lovers
And barren hearted wanderers
Forever lost in forsaken missives and satan's pull
We seek the unseekable and we speak the unspeakable
Our hopes dead gathering dust to dust
In faith, in compassion, and in love
Galapogos

Ain't it funny how we pretend we're still a child
Softly stolen under blanket skies
And rescue me from me, and all that I believe

(chorus)
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Would you leave me too?

Carve out your heart for keeps in and old oak tree
And hold me for goodbyes and whispered lullabyes
And tell me I am still the man I'm supposed to be

(chorus)

Too late to turn to turn back now, I'm running out of sound
And I'm changing, changing, and if we died right now
This fool you love somehow is here with you

(chorus)

Muzzle

I fear that I am ordinary, just like everyone
To lie here and die among the sorrows
Adrift among the days
For everything I ever said
And everything I've ever done is gone and dead

(chorus)
As all things must surely have to end
And great loves will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world

My life has been extraordinary
Blessed and cursed and won
Time heals but I'm forever broken
By and by the way...
Have you ever heard the words
I'm singing in these songs?
It's for the girl I've loved all along
Can a taste of love be so wrong

(chorus)

And in my mind as I was floating
Far above the clouds
Some children laughed I'd fall for certain
For thinking that I'd last forever

But I knew exactly where I was
And I knew the meaning of it all
And I knew the distance to the sun
And I knew the echo that is love
And I knew the the secrets in your spires
And I knew the emptiness of youth
And I knew the solitude of heart
And I knew the murmurs of the soul
And the world is drawn into your hands
And the world is etched upon your heart
And the world so hard to understand
Is the world you can't live without
And I knew the silence of the world

Porcelina Of The Vast Oceans

As far as you take me, that's where I believe
The realm of soft delusions, floating on the laves
On a distant shoreline, she waves her arms to me
As all the thought police, and closing in for sleep
The dilly dally, of my bright lit stay
The steam of my misfortunes
Has given me the power to be afraid
And in my mind I'm everyone
And in my mind
Without a care in this whole world
Without a care in this life
It's what you take that makes it right
Porcelina of the oceans blue
In the slipstream, of thoughtless thoughts
The light of all that's good, the light of all that's true
To the fringes gladly, I walk unadorned
With gods and their creations
With filth and disease
Porcelina, she waits for me there
With seashell hissing lullabyes
And whispers fathomed deep inside my own
Hidden thoughts and alibis
My secret thoughts come alive
Without a care in this whole world
Without a care in this life
It's what you take that makes it right
And in my mind I'm everyone
In my mind I'm everyone of you
You make it right
It's all allright
You make it right
Porcelina of the oceans blue

Take Me Down

Take me down, to the underground
Won't you take me down, to the underground
Why oh why, there is no light
And if I can't sleep, can you hold my life
And all I see is you

Take my hand, I lost where I began
In my heart I know all of my faults
Will you help me understand
And I believe in you
You're the other half of me
Soothe and heal...
When you sleep, when you dream, I'll be there if you need
Whenever I hear you sing...

There's a sun, it'll come, the sun, I hear them call me down
I held you once, a love that once, and life had just begun
And you're all I see...
And the trumpets blew, and angels flew to the other side
And you're all I see, and you're all I need
There's a love that God puts in your heart

Where Boys Fear to Tread

candy cane walks down
to build a bonfie, to break my fall
my baby, my sweet thing
just maybe we could lose ourselves this time
king of the horseflies, dark prince of death
his tragic forces are heaven sent
in sweet things, in a lovers breath
in knowing this was meant to be the last
a go-go-kids, a go-go-style
a suck suck kiss, a suck suck smile
as always, in youn gneed
a velied promise to never die
on dead highways, her black beauties roam
for june angels, so far from home
for a love lost, a faded picture
to tread lightning, to ink the lavender skies
so get on the bomb
get back where you belong

Bodies

cast the pearls aside, of a simple life of need
come into my life forever
the crumbled cities stand as known
of the sights you have been shown
of the hurt you call your own
love is suicide

the empty bodies stand at rest
casualties of their own flesh
afflicted by their dispossession
but no bodies ever knew
nobodys
no bodies felt like you
nobodys
love is suicide

now we drive the night, to the ironies of peace
you can't help deny forever
the tragedies reside in you
the secret sights hide in you
the lonely nights divide you in two
all my blisters now revealed
in the darkness of my dreams
in the spaces in between us
but no bodies ever knew
nobodys
no bodies felt like you
nobodys
love is suicide

Thirty-three

speak to me in a language i can hear
humour me before i have to go
deep in thought i forgive everyone
as the cluttered streets greet me once again
i know i can't be late, supper's waiting on the table
tomorrow's just an excuse away
so I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
the earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
at the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
steeple guide me to my heart and home
the sun is out and up and down again
i know i'll make it, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you
and for a moment i lose myself
wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
i've journeyed here and there and back again
but in the same old haunts i still find my friends
mysteries not ready to reveal
sympathies i'm ready to return
i'll make the effort, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
tomorrow's just an excuse
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you

In the Arms of Sleep

sleep will not come to this tired body now
peace will not come to this lonely heart
there are some things i'll live without
but i want you to know that i need you right now
i need you tonite
i steal a kiss from her sleeping shadow moves
cause i'll always miss her wherever she goes
and i'll always need her more than she could ever need me
i need someone to ease my mind
but sometimes a someone is so hard to find
and i'll do anything to keep her here tonite
and i'll say anything to make her feel alright
and i'll be anything to keep her here tonite
cause i want you to stay, with me
i need you tonite
she comes to me like an angel out of time
as i play the part of a saint on my knees
there are some things i'll live without
but i want you to know that i need you right now
suffer my desire
suffer my desire
suffer my desire for you

1979

shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time
on a live wire right up off the street
you and i should meet
junebug skipping like a stone
with the headlights pointed at the dawn
we were sure we'd never see an end to it all
and i don't even care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know
just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
double cross the vacant and the bored
they're not sure just what we have in the store
morphine city slippin dues down to see
that we don't even care as restless as we are
we feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
and poured cement, lamented and assured
to the lights and towns below
faster than the speed of sound
faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope
justine never knew the rules,
hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
no apologies ever need be made, i know you better than you fake it
to see that we don't care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
the street heats the urgency of sound
as you can see there's no one around

Tales of a Scorched Earth

farewell goodnight last one out turn out the lights
and let me be, let me die inside
let me know the way from of this world of hate in you
cause the dye is cast, and the bitch is back
and we're all dead teah we're all dead
inside the future of a shattered past
i lie just to be real, and i'd die just to feel
why do the same old things keep on happening?
because beyond my hopes there are no feelings
bless the martyrs and kiss the kids
for knowing better, for knowing this
cause you're all whores and i'm a fag
and i've got no mother and i've got no dad
to save me the wasted, save me from myself
i lie just to be real, and i'd die just to feel
why do the same old things keep on happening?
because beyond my hopes there are no feelings
everybody's lost just waiting to be found
everyone's a thought just waiting to fade
so fuck it all cause i don't care
so what somehow somewhere we dared
to try to dare to dare for a little more
i lie just to be real, and i'd die just to feel
why do the same old things keep on happening?
because beyond my hopes there are no reasons

Through the Eyes of Ruby

wrap me up in always, and drag me in with maybes
your innocence is treasure, your innocence is death
your innocence is all i have
breathing underwater, and living under glass
and if you spin your love around
the secrets of your dreams
you may find your love is gone
and is not quite what it seemed
to appear to disappear
beneath all your darkest fears
i believe in never, i believe in all the way
but belief is not to notice, believe is just some faith
and faith can't help you to escape
and with this ring i wed thee true
and with this ring i wed thee now
and with this ring i play so dead
but no one's asking for the truth, so let me tell you
if you spin your love around
the secrets of your dreams
you may find your love is gone
and is not quite what it seemed
to appear to disappear
beneath all your darkest fears
to the revelations of fresh faced youth
no one will come to save you
so speak your peace in the murmurs drawn
but youth is wasted on the young
your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate
my love for you just can't explain
why we're forever frozen, forever beautiful,
forever lost inside ourselves
the night has come to hold us young

Stumbleine

boredoms in the bathroom shaking out the loose teeth
sally's in the stirrups claiming her destiny
and nobody nowhere understands anything
about me and all my dreams
lost at sea
jack it up judy set your heart alight
mayfair mistress of the satellies
misspent youth- faking up a rampage
to hold off the real slaves
paid off and staid
and what you never knew
can never get to you
so fake it
i'll be your stubmleine
i'll be your super queen
and make you
jukebox fuckup hanging round the drugstore
no matter what you say he'll be back for more
mommy's in the manger with the little kids
she's got her reasons, got my forgets
of tears and idle threats
misplaced
and no matter what they do
they can't get to you
so fake it
i'll be your stumbleine
i'll be your super queen
and make you me
come around ruby i could never sleep alone

X.Y.U.

she didn't wanna be, she didn't wanna know
she couldn't run away cause she was crazy
she gave it all away, she saw her baby break
and in the air it hung that she was dull razors
and i said, i wanna fill you up, i wanna break you, i wanna give you up
from one another, another one should come to one another
no one should come between us
still i was lonely, and she was by my side, my one and only
knows that she could never hide
i couldn't feel her, and it was just a game,
cause i was lonely and she was crazy
rat-tat-tat, ka boom boom, now take that, and just a bit of this
cause i'm a watcher, and i'm a doer of none
come to save you, cause you're all mine
i hurt where i can't feel, i feel where i can't hurt
i know where i can't know, i bleed for me and mine
ka-boom, a rat-tat-tat, and some good ole bliss
cause i'm a sister, and i'm a motherfuck
i am made of shamrocks, i am made of stern stuff
i am never enough, i am the forgotten child
and i said i wanna fill you up, i wanna break you, i wanna give you up
from one another, no one should ever come
in between us, between us and our love
mary had a little lamb, her face was white as snow
and everywhere that mary went i was sure to go
now mary's got a problem, and mary's not a stupid girl
mary's got some deep shit, and mary does not forget
and this is how mary's garden grows, and this is how mary has her ghosts
and into the eyes of the jackyl i say ka-boom
now we begin descent, to where we've never been
there is no going back, this wasn't meant to last
this is a hell on earth, we are meant to server
and she will never learn
bye bye, baby goodbye

We Only Come Out at Night

we only come out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come out at night
and once again, you'll pretend to know me well, my friends
and once again, i'll pretend to know the way
thru the empty space
thru the secret places of the heart
we only come out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come out at night
i walk alone, i walk alone to find the way home
i'm on my own, i'm on my own to see the ways
that i can't help the days, you will make it home o.k
i know you can, and you can
we only come out at night, the days are much too bright
we only come out at night
and once again, you'll pretend to know that
there's an end, that there's an end to this begin
it will help you sleep at night
it will make it seem that right is always right
alright?
we only come out at night

Beautiful

beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun
wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come
and i can't help but feel attached
to the feelings i can't even match
with my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you
beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky
wonderful, it's wonderful, to know that you're just like I
and i'm sure you know me well, as i'm sure you don't
but you just can't tell
who'll you love and who you won't
and i love you, as you love me
so let the clouds roll by your face
we'll let the world spin on to another place
we'll climb the tallest tree above it all
to look down on you and me and them
and i'm sure you know me well, as i'm sure you don't
but you just can't tell, who you'll love and who you won't
don't let your life wrap up around you
don't forget to call, whenever
i'll be here just waiting for you
i'll be under your stars forever
neither here nor there just right beside you
i'll be under the stairs forever
neither here nor there just right beside you

Lily

lily, my one and only
i can hardly wait till i see her
silly, i know i'm silly
cause i'm hanging in this tree
in the hopes that she will catch a glimpse of me
and thru her window shade
i watch her shadow move
i wonder if she.......?
lily, my one and only
love is in my heart and in your eyes
will she or won't she want him
no one knows for sure
but an officer is knocking at my door
and thru her window shade
i watch her shadow move
i wonder if she could only see me?
and when i'm with her i feel fine
if i could kiss her i wouldn't mind the time it took to find
my lily, my one and only
i can hardly wait till i see her
oh lily, i know you love me
cause as they're draggin me away
i swear i saw her raise her hand and wave (goodbye)

By Starlight

by starlight i'll kiss you
and promise to be your one and only
i'll make you feel happy
and leave you to be lost in mine
and where will we go, what will we do?
soon said i, will know
dead eyes, are you just like me?
cause her eyes were as vacant as the seas
dead eyes, are you just like me?
and all along, we knew we'd carry on
just to belong
by starlight i know you
as lovely as a wish granted true
my life has been empty, my life has been untrue
and does she really know, who i really am?
does she really know me at last
dead eyes, are you just like me?

Farewell and Goodnight

goodnight, to every little hour that you sleep tite
may it hold you through the winter of a long night
and keep you from the loneliness of yourself
heart strung is your heart frayed and empty
cause it's hard luck, when no one understands your love
it's unsung, and i say
goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day
goodnight, always, to all that's in your heart

goodnight, may your dreams be so happy and your
head lite with the wishes of a sandman and a night light
be careful not to let the bedbugs sleep tight nestled in your covers
the sun shines but i don't
a silver rain will wash away
and you can tell, it's just as well
goodnight, my love, to every hour in every day
goodnight, always to all that's pure that's in your heart

Pisces Iscariot [1994]

2005-10-18T09:34:00.000-07:00

Soothe

Hungry, hungry again
Hungry, hungry again
When will it start to sway
When will it start to almost break you
Hungry, hungry again
Hungry, hungry again
I'll miss you
And I wish you luck
Well, I forgive you
And I don't wish you away, away, away
It'll almost break you
Almost take you
Almost break you
Almost break you up

Frail and Bedazzled

So
Now listen here
I wanna be
Oh so clear
I lost my soul
Lost I'll stay
Between your hands
And my beliefs
And here I am
Frail
Frail and bedazzled from all the glare
Tug
At my sleeve
My little girl
Supermaid
She don't know
That I have
Stole my smile
From a Cheshire Cat
And all I wanted
Was to be a man
Since I gave up
I feel free
I feel free
I feel free
I feel free
Two of us
That's dangerous
It's all inside our heads
Givin' in for nothin' less
Leavin' me for him
Try to understand
The ones I love
And their demands
It's so unfair
When they can't see
That I'm the boy
Who really needs
Their love
I suppose
Frail and bedazzled from all the
Frail and bedazzled from all the
Frail and bedazzled from all the glare

Plume

Oh yeah, another day
Oh yeah, gotta play
What it is
It never was
I don't care
To give enough

My boredom has outshined the sun
It's all down low
I just want to have some
Little fun

Oh yeah, another day
Oh yeah, what a waste
What it is
It never was
I don't care
Or give a fuck

My boredom has outshined the sun
It's all down low
I just want to have some
Little fun

Bring me down
Bring me down

Whir

I've wasted all my years
Been chasin' all my fears
For another brighter than you
I gave in long ago
To make it to the show
But its not easy
When you're alone
All your prayers
In my ears
Don't you care
Whir yourself around
Just to fall back down
Whir yourself around
My honey
Little girl
C'mon lets go for a whirl
It's still early
The sun is sleeping
She says she wants to marry me
She says she wants a baby
It's not easy
When you're scared
Whir yourself around
Just to fall back down
Whir yourself around
All your prayers
In my ears
Don't you care

Blew Away

Blew, blew away
But I don't wanna fade
Blew, blew, oooh

And if you love her
You know it will come true
And if you need her
You know that she'll be there

Stay awake, I lie here
With her and I fall
And when I wake inside you
I know you know I'm yours

Blew, blew away
But I don't wanna fade
Blew, blew, oooh

And if you're sad, too
Until the angel sings and touches you
Don't confuse my only life

I said blew, and please don't ever leave
And I will grieve, and (re)member thee
Hope to meet you there

And I wanna let her know
That I won't let her go
I wanna let her know
That I love her so

I'm Blew, blew, blew away
But I don't wanna-
Blew, I love you
Blew

Pissant

Got me a raygun
Got me an altitude
Can't help feelin' something's wrong
With every one of you

Inside your head
Trust me instead
Inside your head

Talk revolution
As if it matters now
I don't care anyway
Just give me what I want

Inside your head
Trust me instead
Inside your head

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Ooh, honey

Fill me with your little whispers
Store your little nightmares
Of a generation said to burn

Come on honey
Let's go for a ride
Down where the crickets learn to sing and play, baby

Inside your head
Trust me instead
Inside your head
Trust me instead
Inside your head
Trust me instead
Inside your head

Yeah, it's a motherfucker, oh

(WOO!)

Hello Kitty Kat

Say hello before you say goodbye
I should go, before you make me cry
She wants to bleed every drop inside of me
But I aim to please the little girl inside of me, too

Yeah, Yeah
You know I hate to say
Oh no, I always stay
I don't wanna be like the others please

Who is sorry now?
Who is sorry now?
If I show you how
Will you let me down?

Slit my wrists and die a whore
Love to love to love what you adore
I can give you anything, but please let me
Be your everything... please

Yeah, Yeah
You know I hate to say
Oh no, I always stay
I don't wanna be like the others please

Who is sorry now?
If I show you how,
Will you let me down?
Will you let me down?

Who is sorry now?
Who is sorry NOW!?

My love is weakness
My love is oh so wrong
My love is sadness
My love is oh so strong
My teeth are razor sharp
My love is fucking strong
I'll be with you
But not for long

Oh, oh, oh

Yeah, Yeah
You know I hate to say
Oh no, I always stay
I don't wanna be like the others please

Who is sorry now?
Who is sorry now?
Who is sorry now?

If I show you how
Will you let me down?
Will you let me down?
Please let me down
Please let me down

Obscured

Lost your head
Now you sleep on the floor
What you said
I don't want anymore
Through the haze
Make your eyes up to ache
Out in space
Days away

Through these eyes
I rely on all I've seen
Obscured
Through these eyes
Looks like I'm home tonight

Left for dead
As you sweep out the door
Things we said
We don't mean anymore
Tear inside her
Like a fallen kite
Hah, hah, hah, hey, hey, yeah

Through these eyes
I deny on all I see
Obscured
Through these eyes
Looks like I'm home tonight
What you said
Made a mess of me
What you said
I don't want
Obscured

Landslide

I took my love, I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
'Til the landslide brought it down

Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?

Well, I've been afraid of changing cause I've
Built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I'm getting older, too

Well, I've been afraid of changing cause I've
Built my life around you
Time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I'm getting older, too
I get older, too

I took my love and took it down
I climbed a mountain, I turned around
And if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
The landslide brought it down
The landslide brought it down

Starla

I'm in here
Please take me home
Starla dear
I'm all alone

When you can't decide what's on your mind
It's clear I'm here, Starla dear

To disappear takes so much time
Starla dear, you're on my mind

Soon, soon I'll be leaving
Soon, soon I'll be leaving
I hear all you're saying
I hear all you're failing

Serve yourself
No one else can do for you like you
No one else fails like me
In my eyes I burn alive
Fly like a bird
No more words just you and I
High in the sky

Blue

Hey Blue, all your love is strange
Come out with all those crazy names
So true when you lie
For you, Blue

Right or wrong?
I belong right or wrong

Hey Blue, where'd you run to now?
Miss you since they found you out
I've been waiting such a long time
For your smile, for you

I lay with you this velvet morning
Stay with me for a while
Where we run to is up to you
Just stay with me for a while

Girl Named Sandoz

Well I met a girl called Sandoz
And she taught me many many things
Good things, very good things
Sweet things

I met her on a Sunday morning
It was hot though the snow lay on the ground
Strange things, very strange things
My mind has wings

Sandoz Sandoz
Will you tell me "No?"
Sandoz Sandoz
Will you tell me why?
We could all learn something from your mind

She's very old yet many think she's young
One kiss from her and you know your time has come
Good times for all time
Sandoz

La Dolly Vita

I lay my head on her bosom
To cry myself to sleep
I see no greater wisdom
Than she has given me

La Dolly Vita
Sweet as true love
La Dolly Vita
Cool as ice cream
Cool as ice cream

You hear a lot of visions
You can't even stop
Can't see what you're missing
Spinning like a top

Fade away I want to see her
Fade away I want to see her
I only want to meet her

La Dolly Vita
True as blue sky
La Dolly Vita
Cool as ice cream
Cool as ice cream

Take it all the way down
Forsake what you have now
Take it all the way down

Spaced

dad dad dad
dead dead dead dead dead
was i ever alive?
fucking makes you alive in one minute
solstice
i am solstice filled with mercury
filled with mercury
liquid fucked
see right through your heart
see right through your heart
fuck your heart
i am mercury liquid pure
hot, alive, dead, mucked fish eyes, doors
i was born alive
i'll fucking kill you
i'll beat your soft baby head with my own hand
careful with that baby
don't ever say the h word around him
ashamed
i am ashamed of my name, say it
i hate the sound of your shit because it means no good
it means cheap, liar, smart ass piece of shit
change it to raygun you fuck
billy the loon
billy the loon
i am mars
i am mars
billy addly addly addly....
your name causes shit
while i may be no expert on this reality there is no god but shame
god is hurt, god is cold
try that once, god is dead
there is not another one
battle
cold heart radio
feedback
the pain
reoccuring messages of badness
reoccuring living bad dreams at the vortex of lost souls
wailing lost souls of shame
we are in one hole
like a cup of mercury phosphate
brrr
shuddering around [?]
taste my shit you wench
lifting wailing lost souls who stand a chance
hot, my eyes darkly gaze and wonder- do not enter [?]
why why why?
i was born whole
fractured divided shattered into a billion fragments
a million piece puzzle
a million piece jigsaw puzzle with no this, and no that.....

Siamese Dream [1993]

2005-10-18T09:20:00.000-07:00

Cherub Rock

Freak out
And give in
Doesn't matter what you believe in
Stay cool
And be somebody's fool this year
'cause they know
Who is righteous, what is bold
So I'm told

Who wants honey
As long as there's some money
Who wants that honey?

Hipsters unite
Come align for the big fight to rock for you
But beware
All those angels with their wings glued on
'cause deep down
We are frightened and we're scared
If you don't stare

Who wants honey
As long as there's some money
Who wants that honey?

Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out

Tell me all of your secrets
Cannot help but believe this is true
Tell me all of your secrets
I know, I know, I know
Should have listened when I was told

Who wants honey
As long as there is some money
Who wants that honey?

Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out

Quiet

Quiet
I am sleeping
In here
We need a little hope

For years
I've been sleeping
Helpless
Couldn't tell a soul

Be ashamed
Of the mess you've made
My eyes never forget, you see
Behind me

Silent
Metal mercies
Castrate
Boys to the bone

Jesus
Are you listening?
Up there
To anyone at all

We are the fossils
The relics of our time
We mutilate the meanings
So they're easy to deny

Be ashamed
Of the mess you've made
My eyes never forget, you see
Behind me

Quiet
I am sleeping
Quiet
I am sleeping
Quiet
I don't trust you
I can't hear you

Be ashamed
Of the mess you've made
My eyes never forget, you see
Behind me

Behind me
The grace of falling snow
Cover up everything you know
Come save me from the awful sound
Of nothing

Today

Today is the greatest
Day I 've ever kown
Can't live for tomorrow
Tomorrow's much too long
I burn my eyes out
Before I get out

I wanted more
Than life could ever grant
Bored by the chore
Of saving face

Today is the greatest
Day I have ever known
Can't wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I'll tear my heart out
Before I get out

Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
I've tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings

Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day
That I have ever known

I want to turn you on
I want to turn you round
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you

Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever known

Hummer

Faith lies in
The ways of sin
I chased the charms
But I don't want them anymore
And in their eyes I was alive
A fool's disguise

Shame my tongue
Fat with promise all along
But when I woke up from that sleep
I was happier than I'd ever been

When you decide
That you life is a prize
Renew and revive
It's allright honey
It's allright, yeah

Happiness will make you wonder
Will I feel ok
It scares the disenchanted
Far away

I want something new
But what am I supposed to do
About you
I love you, it's true

Life's a bummer
When your a hummer
Life's a drag

Ask yourself a question
Anyone but me
I ain't free

Ask yourself a question
Anyone but me
I ain't free

Do you feel
Love is real

Rocket

Bleed in your own light
Dream of your own life
I miss me
I miss everything I'll never be

I torch my soul to show
The world that I am pure
Deep inside my heart
No more lies

A crown of thorns
An image formed deformed
The mark I've borne
A mark of scorn to you

Consume my love devoure my hate
Only powers my escape
The moon is out the stars invite
I think I'll leave tonight

So that soon I'll find myself alone
To relax and fade away
Do you know what's coming down
Do you know I couldn't stay free?

I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free
I shall be free free
Free as the voices
It's all I need

I shall be free
I shall be free

Disarm

Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my choice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who's left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn

I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my voice
What's a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you

Soma

Nothing left to say
And all I've left to do
Is run away
From you

And she led me up, down
With secrets I can't keep
Close your eyes and sleep
Don't wait up for me
Hush now don't you speak
To me

Wrap my hurt in you
And took my shelter in that pain
The opiate of blame
Is you broken heart, your heart

So now I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
I'll betray my tears
To anyone caught in our ruse of fools

One last kiss for me...yeah
One last kiss good night

Didn't want to lose you once again
Didn't want to be your friend
Fulfill a promise made of tears
And crawled back to you

Now I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
And I'll betray myself
To anyone, anyone but you

So let the sadness come again
On that you can depend on me
Until the bitter, bitter end
When good sleeps in bliss

And I'm all by myself
As I've always felt
And I'll betray myself
To anyone

Geek U.S.A.

Lover lover let's pretend
We're born as innocents
Cast into the world
With apple eyes

To wish wish dangerous
My dear delirious
To try and leave
The rest of us behind

Shot full of diamonds
And a million years
The disappointed disappear
Like they were never here

Kiss kiss all of this
The hiss that we had miss
And understand what can't be understood

Sear those thoughts of me
Alone and unhappy
I never liked me anyway

If by chance
Or circumstance
We should fail
Don't be so sad

Shot full of diamonds
And a million years
The disappointed disappear
Like they were never here

In a dream
We are connected
Siamese twins
At the wrist

And then I knew we'd been forsaken
Expelled from paradise
I can't believe them
When they say that it's alright

Words can't define what I feel inside
Who needs them?
Caught with this virus of my mind
I give in to my disease, of my needs
To my disease, of my needs

She really loves to break
Her dad says it's ok
She really loves to break
And give it all away

Her ma says she's afraid
What more can she fake
She really needs to break
And give herself away

She gave it all away
She gave it all away
She gave it all away
We really love the usa

Mayonaise

Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it
Doomed
Pick your pockets full of sorrow
And run away with me tomorrow
June

We'll try and ease the pain
But somehow we'll feel the same
Well, no one knows
Where our secrets go

I send a heart to all my dearies
When your life is so, so dreary
Dream
I'm rumored to the straight and narrow
While the harlots of my perils
Scream

And I fail
But when I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will

Mother weep the years I'm missing
All our time can't be given
Back
Shut my mouth and strike the demons
That cursed you and your reasons
Out of hand and out of season
Out of love and out of feeling
So bad

When I can, I will
Words defy the plan
When I can, I will

Fool enough to almost be it
And cool enough to not quite see it
And old enough to always feel this
Always old, I'll always feel this

No more promise no more sorrow
No longer will I follow
Can anybody hear me
I just want to be me
When I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will

Spaceboy

Feel it
Break your bones
Mr. jones

Taste me
As I bleed
Taste my need

And spaceboy I've missed you
Spinnin round my head
Any way you choose me
You'll break instead

Watch me
Death defy
Defile my life

I don't need
I don't care
Please

I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home

Cause when a lover aches
That's when a lover breaks

I want to go home
I want to go home

And spaceboy they'll kill me
Before I'm dead and gone
And anyway they choose me
We won't belong
And anyway you choose me
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong

Silverfuck

I hear your winter
I hear your rain
I've failed your summer ways
And I feel no pain

I hear what you want
And I feel that way
I hear what you want
And I feel that way

I hear you fade away
And I hear you crawl
I gave my life away
And I feel no pain
And I feel no pain
And I feel no pain
And I feel your pain

And she was my lover so sweet
And she was my angel
And what I've recovered of me
I put into a box underneath my bed

When you lie in your bed
And you lie to yourself
When you lie in your bed
And you lie to yourself
Lie
Lie

Bang bang your dead hole in your head
Bang bang your dead hole in your head
Bang bang your dead hole in your head
Bang bang your dead hole in your head

I hear what you want
And I feel that way
I hear what you want
And I feel that way

[this take, don't give a fuck]

Sweet Sweet

Sweet sweet sweet sweet
Little agony
I don't know just where you've been
But I'll take take take
All that you have for me
In sin
Where are we going?

And they all want you to change
And they all want you to change

And the sad sad sad
Faces drown
In this town
Where are we going

And they all want you to change
Where are we going
And they all want you to change
Where are we going

Luna

What moon songs
Do you sing your babies
What sunshine
Do you bring

Who belongs
Who decides who's crazy
Who rights wrongs
Where others cling

I'll sing for you
If you want me to
I'll give to you
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break

I go along
Just because I'm lazy
I go along
To be with you

And those moon songs
That you sing your babies
Will be the songs
To see you thru

I'll hear your song
If you want me to
I'll sing along
And it's a chance I'll have to take
And it's a chance I'll have to break

I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
So in love
I'm in love with you
I'm so in love
I'm in love with you

Gish [1991]

2005-10-18T09:17:00.000-07:00

I am one

I am one as you are three
Try to find a messiah in your trinity
Your city to burn
Your city to burn
Try to look for something
Your city to burn; you'll burn
Am I as I seem? Oh no
Don't slow down

Time is right for a guiding light
Try to turn to reasons in your inner life
Your city to burn
Your city to burn
Try to look for something
Your city to burn; you'll burn

Said you're the only one who
Said I am one
Said now you're the one who
Said I am one

Siva

That's when I bend loose my head
Throwing straight a spark instead
Yellow streak down in my hair
Dig it in the world I heal

Way down deep and in my heart
Lies a soul that's torn apart
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster

I don't live - I invade
I don't give - I unveil
Don't want to live in your misery
I don't live - I invade

Sprinkle all my kisses on your head
Stars follow wishes fill your bed
She said, "I'm dead"

All this pain smothers me
Like a bomb that you can't see
Tell me, tell me what you're after
I just want to get there faster

I don't live - I invade
I don't give - I unveil
I don't live

Rhinoceros

lanned a show
Treasoned my roots
Ice cream snow
See you in June

Could have known
I would relive
Should have known
I would come see you

Your way she knows
And she knows she knows she knows

Colors show
After long
I should go
See you in June

Open your eyes - to these must I lie?

Bury me

(boys, let's do it)

Real love
Real love

I'll take your kisses, take your heart
Everything if it hurts

I love my sister so (turn on shine)
She don't smother me (turn on shine, on shine)
I played the spades I know (on shine)
I'm a Jack of all trades
Would you bury me?

Once you see her
One inside (hide, hide)
Some of the things you just can't hide

If you see her
Tell me why hurry, hurry
Why won't she come outside?

She will bury me

Crush

You wrap your arms around
A feeling that surrounds
Like liquid peppermint
Just taste the drinks that she served

And this feeling shimmers down your spine
Love comes in colors I can't deny
All that matters is love, love, your love

You're sleeping in your bed
Just rest your weary head
Maybe you shouldn't care
Throw away those dreams and dare

And I wonder if it matters to me
Love comes in colors I can't deny
All that shimmers is love, love, your love
Your love

Suffer

All that you suffer is all that you are
All that you smother is all that you are
And you're saying you're seeing, you're seeing who you are
What takes meaning is cleaning the meaning of who you are

All may say
I will dream
All may say

All of your struggles beneath your disguise
Drink from the reasons that hold you alive
'Til we're safe from the wounds of desire and pain
You must rise from the mounds of desire and change

Too late to discover peace of mind
Too late to recover me

All you see and all you breathe and all you cease to be
Taken down your only son and what he means to me
Your dream will be
To dream with me

Will you wait? Yes I will, I will wait for you
To cleanse your life takes more than time
Take what you want
Take all of it

Too late to discover peace of mind
Too late to recover

Snail

All your seven dreams
Look close, son, and you'll believe
As your things come undone
See you are the only one

Flower, seize the hour I did
I wait
Waiting, waiting for your wake
I'll wait

When you wake up you're all weak
Throwing your life away
Someday, sorry coming home
Sorry snail
What you wait for

Flower, the pain will wash away, away
When the sun shines
Climbs through your window into your bed

When you wake up you're all weak
Throwing your life away
Someday, sorry coming home
Sorry snail
Down in my heart

Flower save the hours
Flower away

What you wait for
Flower chase the sunshine
Flower

Tristessa

ledged your faith
my heart embraced
struggle to renew

Blurry mind
so hypnotized
fast enough who

Wonder where you are
Tristessa

Soul takes soul
as eye take eye
I will wait for you

What you believe
you'll wish to receive
I won't believe in you

Hang on to your life
Tristessa

I love you true
Surely I do
Surely I do

Do you ever wake up and find yourself alone?
Do you ever wake up far from home?
What you believe
you'll wish to receive
I won't believe in you
Tristessa

Window paine

Window Paine
Around my heart
Shadow streak
Around my heart

Do what you got to do
And say what you got to say
Do what you got to do
Yes, start today
Start today

Wind blow shame
Around my heart
Shadow scream
Around my heart

What are you coming to
Stripped down to the bone?
Laughing, living
On your own
All alone

Do what you got to do
And say what you got to say
Do what you got to do
Yes, start today
Start today

Daydream

My daydream seems as one inside of me
Though it seems hard to reach through this life
Your blue and hopeless life

My daydream screams bitter 'til the end
The love I share -true- selfish to the heart
My heart, my sacred heart

My daydream dream
My day dream dream

I'm going crazy
I'm going crazy
I don't want feelings
Your feelings

I have gone crazy
Motherfuckin' crazy
I have gone